When we apply a little vulnerability, life with hearing loss gets a little easier. Sharing our experiences helps break down the mystery behind hearing loss. Asking others to help us find solutions invites creativity.
Don’t avoid the uncomfortable.
Michele: Emily Nagoski, who has a PhD in health behavior, talks about the fear of uncomfortable feelings, which is another way to say the fear of vulnerability: “One of the things I say over and over… is that feelings are tunnels. You have to go through the darkness to get to the light at the end… You’ve got to work all the way through it… [I] grew up in a family where uncomfortable feelings were not allowed, and… [I was] pretty sure that uncomfortable feelings [were more like] caves with bats and rats and snakes and a river of poison.“
Like Emily, I grew up in a family where vulnerability was demonstrated as a bad thing—something to avoid at all costs—and asking for help meant that you were weak. It took me far too long to realize that the complete opposite is true.
By avoiding uncomfortable feelings and situations, aka vulnerability, you rob yourself of the opportunity to move through it. But when you allow yourself to be vulnerable, you can move through any uncomfortable or difficult situation to figure out how to manage and take control of it. By sitting within your own discomfort over and over, you will reach a point where you no longer dread what makes you uncomfortable. Confronting uncomfortable feelings teaches you to manage the emotional and psychological aspects of hearing loss.
Avoidance shuts down opportunity.
Another good quote: “When you shut down vulnerability, you shut down opportunity.” ~Gay Gaddis
Avoiding vulnerability is part of what causes people with hearing loss to isolate themselves. Shame thrives in isolation. When you haven’t truly accepted your hearing loss, defined your communication needs, or acquired the skill to handle situations where you feel vulnerable, hearing loss will continue to paralyze you.
The minute I embraced being vulnerable, my life changed.
Since there seemed to be no one to teach me how to live in the world with hearing loss, I decided it was up to me to teach myself. I had no idea how to even tell people I couldn’t hear or what to call myself. Was I deaf, hard of hearing, hearing impaired?
Start practicing vulnerability in a setting of your choice.
That is where I started. I psyched myself up and went to an out-of-the-way mall, going into every single store to practice how to tell people I couldn’t hear. I discovered labels don’t work—they don’t provide any useful information—and I had no idea of my own needs, which is required in order to tell others what I needed from them.
My truth is that I am a lipreader and I need to see people speak in order to hear them. However, lipreading wasn’t always going to work, so I also needed to know what to do when it didn’t work.
Intentionally exposing myself to what I feared, and facing those fears in the context of experimentation, to find an effective way to inform about my hearing loss, I became desensitized to my own discomfort. Equally important was learning to define my own needs and truth.
Hard of Hearing (HoH) people need to find skill, knowledge, and confidence to combat the natural inclination to isolate themselves. Vulnerability is where those things will be found and is what will allow them to adapt to life with hearing loss.
Isolation is often the first thing we go with.
Chelle: Big changes in our hearing leads to life changes, turning life upside down. There’s a lot of pain that goes with the changes. I lost friends who wouldn’t/couldn’t switch from the phone to the email/text. I couldn’t cope in the salon anymore with all the excess noise and lost the one job I thought I’d be doing until I was 80 years old. Any kind of large gathering was torture. So I stayed home a lot because it was easier than:
- Making another friend who might also decide I was too much trouble as a HoH.
- Losing another job I might try to find.
- Attending events, not understanding the speakers. Being the lone person sitting in a sea of people who were laughing when I didn’t understand any of it.
It was easier to stay home and watch DVDs. It was easier to read a book or be on the computer where I didn’t have to hear. However, it wasn’t where I really wanted to be.
I isolated myself but reached out to my tribe. I joined the SayWhatClub again, because it was email and I now had several new friends who adored email too. I attended HLAA meetings in person, they had CART (Communication Access Realtime Translation) at every meeting and there I could participate. I felt less alone with them. As I shied away from the hearing world, my HoH world grew and eventually my courage in the hearing world expanded too.
Finding the HoH Tribe
Thank goodness for my tribe. They helped me be who I was meant to be (in more ways than one). Vulnerability was me asking for CART the first time for a workshop, outside the HoH community, that I wanted to attend. Because I had support, I was able to push past the initial “no” for CART and persisted until I got it. That small win gave me courage to continue to make my communication needs known. I grew in confidence little by little.
Several years ago, Michele and I worked together on the social media team while volunteering for the SWC. We ran across Brene Brown’s TED Talk, The Power of Vulnerability. Her talk started with shame which many of us with hearing loss experience. We feel between worlds, not hearing, not Deaf. We are neither here nor there, lost somewhere in the middle. We have no place to connect. Brene talked about vulnerability and Michele and I understood this is what makes us strong. Taking chances brought us back and connected us to life again.
Years later, I read Brene Brown’s book, The Gift of Imperfection. I have notes all over the place in that book in regards to hearing loss! I highly recommend reading this book if you need to break through shame and vulnerability barriers.
Managing Hearing Loss
Julia: Protection. That is what comes to mind when I hear the word vulnerability. It means we must, at all cost, protect those we care for most. But do we take it too far? Only you and your hearing loss partner can decide how to protect each other without causing further harm. But let me ask you, hearing partner, are you answering questions that they could answer for themselves before hearing loss? Are you taking control of situations they may have handled themselves in the past? Are you allowing them to stay home alone while you continue the same lifestyle you shared before the hearing loss?
Have you asked them if this is what they want?
As a CART provider I see a different side of vulnerability. And guess what? Business owners, you are causing unnecessary vulnerability. If an employee, student, or consumer approaches you about needing live captioning, don’t automatically say “no.” This is someone who has stepped out of their comfort zone and is in a vulnerable spot. Before you decide “no”, reach out and talk with a CART/Captioning company and find out what you can about how to offer the accommodation. And yes CART is an equal access accommodation under ADA.
Stepping out of your comfort zone is scary.
Saying yes when everything in your being is telling you to say no takes courage. You might even stumble a time or two, but that’s okay, because you learn some valuable things from every misstep along the way.
If you need help and encouragement to deal with the uncomfortable feeling of being vulnerable, contact us at Hearing Loss LIVE!. We’ve been there and love helping others in the ways we needed help in our own journey.
You don’t have to let hearing loss paralyze and isolate you.
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